found it extra hard to network with people, even just text them on Facebook. I was having anxiety and panic attacks. I was a mess yet i couldn’t see it.
This was me when i was 17 and working over 12 hours a day after school.
I was fighting anorexia, had ocd and bipolar depression which was left untreated for almost 5 years.
When i tried to get back in the game I found that my partner had killed himself and that he was bipolar too
That was the last straw for me, I couldn’t handle it anymore and decided to see a psychiatrist. It took another few years but I was lucky to find a proper combo that works well for me.
I don’t get anxiety or panic attacks when things fail anymore, I’m way more calm, collected and eager to give it another shot. I started messaging and engaging with my partners more often without a fear of rejection.
All my teenage years I heard things like “don’t think you are better than a doctor or engineer ” from my relatives.
It took me years to tell myself that it doesn’t matter who you are or what you do. As long as you put in a conscious effort to be bloody good at it people will have respect for you. A chef that is bloody good at his job will always have more respect than a neurosurgeon whos bad at his.
I used to be worried about not getting it right at one go but then I slowly realized that someone who went through a shit ton of shit can be a much better mentor or a coach than someone who got it right right off the bat 🙂